A Letter to My Childhood Friend

Regardless of whether or not she'll read this message, I want to share my thoughts and feelings about our friendship.

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Dear childhood friend,

Thank you for all the happiness and memories we've shared together ever since I moved to America when I was 5 years old.

To be frank, I don't consider you my friend anymore.

When we were children, I considered those who made me happy and kept me company my friends.

Now that I've grown older, my definition of "friends" has changed to only include those who have been by my side during good AND bad times; take the time to understand my thoughts and feelings; and to have honest, mature, and realistic conversations about the world.

Ever since we attended different high schools, we lost touch with each other.

Yes, we have been seeing each other at our usual social gatherings, but there was nothing more between us outside those events.

I'm not jealous of how you hang out with your high school friends more than me. Rather, I realized that our friendship was defined by nothing more than just playing around.

I understand how some people are okay with having "loose definitions" for "friends" (e.x. people who they share similar interests with, usually hang out with, etc.).

But in this world full of ghosts, strangers, and other faceless beings, I want to have meaningful relationships.

I have tried time and time again to enrich our friendship, but you do not want to do the same and show any appreciation for my efforts.

Goodbye, childhood friend. I want to love those who I can give meaning to their lives, as well as those who'll give meaning to my life.

#letter #journal